READER QUESTION: What is your perspective on vulnerability hangovers?
Is it good or bad to feel so vulnerable after creating something and sharing it with the world?
Right now I feel like I could cry. I’ve felt like this for a few days. Since the 9th of June, in fact, when I announced to my newsletter subscribers and then, later, to the rest of the world via social media, that I was offering a paid element to my newsletter.
The initial panic and unease after the announcement went out when my anxieties were heightened and I sat staring at my computer for twenty minutes, unable to move, has reduced slightly.
Now there are background emotions that sometimes peek out onto the surface. Every now and again I feel a little trembly, a little unsteady, my stomach is swirling like a washing machine behind a closed door. But every now and again the door opens and the sound of the washing machine is louder, the vibrations are stronger, and it’s coming up to the spin cycle. The emotion, steadfast behind my eyes, threatens to make itself public.